catapult magazine

I am crying out to anyone on this board that would listen. My faith doesn’t seem to make sense anymore, and I am constantly finding myself hoping for things outside mainstream evangelical thought which leads to constant guilt.

I can’t seem to rest in the grace of God since on one hand preachers say it’s all about grace, and in the next breath you listen to John Piper talk about how we must suffer for Christ. Then I realize I’ve never even suffered a hang nail for Christ and that I must not be "saved."

tbone, I can’t say I’m too surprised, but I’m glad you’re finding people who will let you grapple. Grappling is good. A book I’m enjoying right now you might want to check out is called "How (Not) to Speak of God" by Pete Rollins.